sometimes obedience makes things worse.

I recently did something that I didn’t want to do at all. But I did it because I knew Jesus was asking me to. I did it because I knew deep down it was the path towards courage and growth. I did it because I want to be healed more than I want to stay comfortable….

how to deal with friendship guilt.

The other day, I was praying with a friend, who reluctantly admitted that one of the things that she needed prayer for felt silly. I assured her that if it felt important to her, it surely couldn’t be too silly for prayer. She took a deep breathe and told me that she needed prayer for…

what I read in August.

This past month I read books I loved and one’s I didn’t. I read books that made me wrestle with what I think. I read some entertaining stories. I read books that made me love Jesus more. Here they all are. Daring to Hope I knew I wanted to read this book after devouring Kisses…

confessions of a conflict-avoidant champ.

I know that for me, what may be a small conflict for someone else, is a raging storm in my own heart. It may have only been a blip on the radar for someone else, but it threatens to take over all my thoughts and keeps me up at night. My peacemaker heart is willing…

when things feel too much, too terrible & beyond hope.

I was furious; livid, even. I was using words I hardly ever say; words I save for my most-angry-self. I felt so hurt and upset and angry. This conflict in our lives had brought yet another round of the familiar, dysfunctional cycle to our doorstep and I was fed up and fuming. But then I…

when you don’t want anger or grief to be part of your story.

When she said the word, fragile, I almost started crying. This was it. I had been feeling especially something but hadn’t known what until she said the word. It felt like permission and grace and relief to name what was true for me. Only a matter of days before, I had named how utterly depleted I felt,…